There are days when you are really on top of your game - you say all the right things, you get all the right people to agree, and you're pinging on all 8. Yesterday was NOT one of those days. And the wallowing began. It was short lived though, especially after a better night's sleep than the night before. And some good news from my first home (M - so glad your doc appt turned out well) and from my second home (Amy & Curt - we're praying for CJ's recovery). Tonight sealed the deal. I witnessed one of those moments that warms my heart. Ryan went to Alex's room and had Alex on his lap, while Alex read to him. It was the sweetest thing ever. It cracks me up, one minute they're at each other's throats, and then something like this. Just throws me for a loop. But I love it.
My subjugation to the superwoman myth began in 1991 when I started my career in nuclear power as a young engineer. I met my Prince Charming and in 1994 became his wife. A few years later we had two sons, who are now ages 12 and 10. I work full time in the nuclear industry...and I chase the dream of finding balance one day!
Entropy is a concept in physics and thermodynamics that is essentially the measure of randomness and disorder within a system. Any state of order is actually a state of unequal distribution, and is virtually certain to randomize as time passes. As an isolated system tends towards equilibrium, entropy increases; thus, it is the tendency of a system to move from a less probable (ordered) to a more probable (less ordered) state. As the amount of entropy in a system increases, the amount of free energy in that system decreases.
As I contemplated the elusiveness of the specter of equilibrium in my world (i.e., balancing family, work, friends, etc.), it suddenly occurred to me that entropy is not just the second law of thermodynamics, but the algorithm that mathematically explains the chaos of a working mother's life. The more you work for equilibrium, the greater randomness and disorder become. You don't have to understand physics or thermodynamics--you just have to be a mom to get it.
And so begins my entry into blogworld. Somewhere to place those random entropic thoughts of mine, as I try to make sense of my chaotic existence. And yet, despite it all, there is a divine plan for my very being. I've chosen a path, not really knowing where it will take me, but trusting that God will show me the way. (October 26, 2008)